ANGELS TO ASHES, DEVILS TO DUST

That pain was forgotten
Those bruises were gone
Life was new as I tried to move on
Once again things seemed to be fine
The cuts and rashes were getting filled with time
Once again I learnt how to fly
Once again I learnt how to hug the sky
Things were beautiful, things were new
Once again the words seemed true
But again the dark shadow has been cast
Once again I am in the painful past
The box has broken and so has the final string of trust
Angels to Ashes and Devils to Dust

The tears seemed far away
Happiness I thought was here to stay
Once again the grass was green
Once again the world wasn’t mean
Once again there was no distress
No more was pain my mistress
Once again smiling wasn’t a task
There was no need to hide behind a mask
But now I know the façade is here to stay
The more I want happiness the more it goes away
The box has broken and I have been cursed
Angels to Ashes and Devils to Dust

Your memories will never be the same
This heart will never take your name
This angel is not yours; this devil is not yours any more to claim
But now I wont have no repent, now I wont have no shame
For it’s time for the phoenix to rise
For it’s time that change is a must
For it’s time that the Angel is Ashes
For it’s time that the Devil is Dust

ERASE

I kept rubbing on the wounds but they just wont go.

How do I erase you from my thoughts?? You are spreading in my mind like poison and I need an antidote. Its consuming my senses…my sanity…buried under heaps of negative thoughts…where is the Night Fairy I once knew who helped me dream…but wasn’t it you again…the creature of darkness who devoured my soul??

You were never mine…you could have never been mine... then why this sense of emptiness inside…I knew myself better…my feelings never played with me…so what was it…your words which made me enter the unknown…which made me lose myself willingly??

Why do I feel cheated when I knew I was cheating my own perception?? So was it my own reflection, which played games?? But didn’t you once say you were a mirror to me??

LONELY ROAD

Passing by the lanes of life,
Wondering what i did was right,
Took the path that people showed,
I was walking on the lonely road...

I forgot the fragrance of the rose,
While travelling up the mountains high,
Freshness of the dew unknown,
All I could do was just moan,
Questions of the soul torture me,
About my needs and about my deeds,
Still i am walking all alone,
All the way on the lonely road...

Desperate for affection, love and care,
Longing for someone besides me,
Afraid of my own shadows in day,
Not a ray of hope in my way,
I lost faith, I never won,
But I knew I had to run,
All along the lonely road...

With watery eyes, I would love to share,
My sorrows, my pains, my needs and fears,
My hands reach out in the dark,
Only to find my life apart
My head and heart still keep me going,
On the thorny route of the lonely road...

I wish I never had begun,
My miseries don't seem to end,
Desires and wishes will soon be dead,
But I continue as my soul had vowed,
To walk along the lonely road....!!!!

TAKE AWAY... MY PAIN

As I sit by the speaking tree,
A gentle breeze caresses me
A youthfull shadow from my past,
Makes me cry out loud at last.

I feel no sorrow, feel no pain,
Dont feel no loss, dont feel no gain,
The good old sky speaks out again,
The shadows gone; I feel the rain.

It drops down with a cooling feel,
It mixes with my tears; I kneel.
I think about the loss; I reel,
The pain is back, but i want to heal. . .

What lies beyond the pain, I ask,
Is this too much? Too hard a task?
Thats when i hear the gentle voice
"Its of the tree!" I realise.

It speaks to me and turns me calm,
Its gentle voice soothes like a balm,
It drops a fruit into my palm
Guides me from the way of harm.

The rain is gone, and so's the pain,
I feel that i am born again,
The shadow's back, it hurts no more,
And I go to sleep with a gentle snore!