The Way I See It :)

When someone asks you,

"when is it that you smiled the last time.?"

you should be able to reply,

"just a second ago."

Keep smiling.. Because you are worth it..

TIMELESS

There are times when happiness knows no bounds

and the tears just don't stop...


And some other times, when sadness stretches into the horizon

and yet you can't shed a tear...


Strangely, these are the times that are remembered the most.


One, for the memories permanently etched in your heart..

and the other, for the lessons forever engraved in your mind.

Conversations With God!!!

Dear God,

I'm writing to you because I want me to continue believing in you like I used to. I know I don't think you're the same person you used to be but I think I'm being so selfish for believing in you when the going was good and for losing my faith when the going isn't so great.

Dear God, I would like you to know that somewhere deep down I still believe you will set everything right for me because I know it's beyond me now. And though I do not remember you as often as I should, I hope you still remember me. I am troubled that thoughts of you don't comes easily to me these days and I wish you would change that at least. If I can't have anything else, can I have you at least by my side?

Several times in a day, a prayer begins to form at my lips but I never send it you because I feel cheap asking for anything other than what you've already given me. You do know what's best for me, don't you? I hope it's just me right now who can't see it. I hope there's a good reason why you're doing this with me.

I cry a lot these days because I'm weak and vulnerable from everything that's happening around me over which I have no apparent control but which affects me in the biggest way possible. But please forgive me for those tears. They are not tears of ingratitude though they may be tears of sorrow.

Help me forget the pain, please. And help me forgive. Because I'm tired of the weight that I carry with me. I feel I am drifting away from the people I love because I'm so bitter inside. Don't take away those people away from me and blame it on me, God; don't blame me for being bitter.

I see the world around me changing. And I feel like a bystander with no part to play in it. Give me a part, God, in my own life.

Love you,
Indy

Silence!!!

Silence is pure beauty



Beauty without imperfection



A space between sounds



A deadness between noise



Quiet, you can hear it, yet you can't hear anything at all



So you could say silence is nothing



A nothing like me



Nothing is there and so nothing there is to judge



I wish I was silence, so no one would judge me……

A Killing Time

Leave it to God. That's what he told me....


It might have taken me quite a bit of time to own up but yes, it's a difficult phase in life. Everything I touch vanishes these days. Things I looked forward to have simply turned away from me. I thought I knew where I am headed. Now sometimes, I am forced to feel I have no clue. None whatsoever. It's frustrating, to say the least. You can always put up a brave face. Deep inside though you know it's merely a facade.


Why is it happening, I can't tell you. Sometimes, I even ask myself have I done enough to deserve what I am seeking in life. To be honest, I have no idea at all.


Then suddenly, it becomes all the more difficult if you set yourself parameters of success and failure. When you look at yourself as another one in the race, the path suddenly becomes tedious. The joy of the journey fades away. Getting drawn into comparison is something I always despised. But that's exactly what I am doing. Looking at myself through others' parameters of success and failure.


I always called myself a drifter. Took life as it came. So why am I bothered now? It probably is the right time to drift awhile without losing hope. Didn't someone say hope is the thing with feathers?


As nothing goes my way, I am back to things I have always cherished; things which are close to my heart; memories of great times with my someone special; thoughts of my loved one who have inspired me. I know it's time to hang on. May be a little more. The road will appear. Sooner than later.


The sensational Ayn Rand said:


It is easy to stumble. It's easy to lose way. Easier when you think you have not got what you want in life.


In the name of the best within you, do not sacrifice this world to those who are its worst. In the name of the values that keep you alive, do not let your vision of man be distorted by the ugly, the cowardly, the mindless in those who have never achieved his title. Do not lose your knowledge that man's proper estate is an upright posture, an intransigent mind and a step that travels unlimited roads. Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won, it exists, it is real, it is possible, it's yours.

THY ABSENCE !!!

ABSENSE.....
Sometimes the physical absense of an entity is so hard to ingest into your system...isnt it ?

You can see that things are not gonna change from what they are, yet you cant bring yourself upto gulping it down.

Its at these moments you feel like you have used all your energy.....

Missing, craving, waiting, crying, wanting, needing...and still it never seems to cease embarking its existence on the lonesome grave.

The lament is too high, the pain is too deep.

And then the pinnacle of uncertainty glides into your heart, creating humungous tidals waves of doubts and questions.

Is tomorrow, just a figment of imagination rooted deep into the crust of infinity ?

Is tomorrow, just the concept of a loner's pain of eluding the sting of nullness ?

A million questions run across your mind in a million milliseconds, yet no answer shows up.

You keep drawing circles, knowing you're gonna keep doing that for a long long time. Coz the vantage point you're looking for, is somewhere hidden in between the lines of the unseen tomorrow.

Aah.........the tomorrow !!!

Whose sole mission is catapulting the innumerable neutrons of maelstroms onto the translucent membrane of emotions called 'LOVE' that wraps this innocent heart....

Making this innocent heart, ever more fragile....

All About "L"

Love is a branch twined together,
to grow up with beautiful leaves
and fallen petals.


Life is a tree full of branches,
waiting to grow with nature.


So life is a blend of connection,
starting from the root
and love waits for the right season.

"If good things do not happen in life, you are destined to have better things."

NEW YEAR :)

New Start
Earnestly Awaited
Warmly Welcomed

Yesteryear Bygone
Embracing Changes
Abiding Resolutions
Rising Hopes :)

YOU !!!!

I find it wonderful the way God has created our perfect friend for us within us. We keep searching for a loyal friend and the unconditional companionship that such a friendship may promise, only to find it was inside us all along.

In the depths of gloominess you can still the light somewhere; far off may be, but yes you do. And while the rest of the world can walk out on you, you will always have yourself. No one can ever crush your spirit or hurt you in any way unless you give them the power to do so.

May be .....

Maybe … we can tell the good from the bad, but we need the bad to make us realize the worth of goodness.

Maybe … dreams are to take us away from reality; go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you dream of, and want to do.

Maybe … it is all part of a bigger plan of God that we meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right one, we'll appreciate more and hold dear to us.

Maybe … we really won't appreciate what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don’t know what we have been missing until it arrives.

Maybe … I should keep hoping for enough happiness to make me sweeter, enough trials to make me stronger, enough sorrow to keep me humble and human, and enough tragedies to make me wiser.

Maybe … happiness is all in the head and people don't have to have the best to be happy; Most of them are just making the most of what they have and finding pleasures in little little things that comes along their way.

Maybe … you should do something nice for someone every single day, even if it is simply to leave them alone. Yes my friend made me realize long back that is also a nice thing and hence I quote.

Maybe … a best friend is him who understands that my silence has words and he hears what I am going through and knows how to cheer me up.

Maybe … a fast forward button is not the reason we were given life, life is about the ups and downs, the fast and the slow, the mighty and the weak, we have to see if everything was worth it in the end, and hence live through one moment at a time.

Maybe … there are moments in life when you miss someone — a parent, a spouse, a friend, a child — so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around you appreciate them more.

Maybe … love isn't about expectations, it is all about giving. The moment you expect love dies. One should know love from selfishness. Love is selfless.

Maybe _ all you can do is not think. Not wonder. Not obsess. Not imagine. Just breathe. Breathe in, breathe out. Everything works out in the end, and the more time you spend worrying about it, the longer it takes for things to end perfectly...just the way they should.

Maybe _ you have to be strong for yourself, I have to know that I am a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be will end up good, and what is not, won't. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don't lose something real. Always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for.

CARBUNCLES OF LIFE !!!!

Emotions carbuncle d
Sweeping me into its abscess
A depth so rare, to where
A visit, these days, i dare

No longer do i feel alone
With thoughts in company
A lap, i lay things down to rest
Bare it all out, swing back up
Feeling strong and relieved

A release of sorts, anchor
the well-being of my soul
Makes me laugh at instances i cried foul
Let free of the bondage unnecessary
Which so often I tend to carry

Healing on its way, i do not sway
steady, plunge and lead each day
come what may, i see the ray
hid behind the carbuncles at life’s bay

MY LOVE !!!! :-)

I love myself more than ever,
when I smile for you,
when I cry for you,
when I live for you, and
when I say I love you.

I love you more than myself,
when I feel your love,
when I enjoy your presence,
when I respect your thoughts, and
when I imagine our future.

Random Quote :-)

PS : I'm a big fan of Brad Pitt...and this movie "Meet Joe Black" is one my favorites. A quote from the movie had really got me spellbound :-)

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

Thank You !!!

Though I have not been a regular visitor to deities and temples, But I wanna Thank you, Lord for a thousand over times. Every time, the weight to the head gets added, it’s only Your love that has humbled me back to reality. Because Your love is perfectly manifested in every inch of me…

*From the day I was a single cell, it is You who know me perfectly well!

*In the darkness inside my mother’s womb, You saw my parts taking shape, and we have shared secrets, which I have forgotten over the years. Despite, You remember every single secret of me!!

*You marveled at my every move inside the darkness.

*You made a miracle of my life, when you brought me out to see the world, when my vocal chords were moved for the first cry!

*When I was too small to know the value of life, You sent angels in people to nourish it…

*There were many a times, when I have stumbled, knocked down, so hard that getting up seemed difficult. But, You did not give up on me.

*I have gone astray, wayward, but every time, You gave me another chance! You replenished my soul, and revealed Your unconditional self!

*In those days, when I was young enough to appreciate the value of my life, You worked through Your plans, and they were just perfect!

*You did not mimic me as another human. You made me unique.

*Everytime I ran to You nagging, ranting and complaining, You only smiled, which meant to say, nothing can be any better than this perfection!

*Everytime I came fretting, You calmed the storm within!!

You are wonderful, just the way You are!! What else do I need, dear Lord, than this perfect blend of joy and pain. I am glad I knew both, have been through both, and even glad that You are beside me in each. What better perfection can I ask for? Just grant me two things: To be honest in all I do, to never be rich or poor, in any terms, just give me what You feel I need, because sometimes I fail to know the difference between needs and wants!! What better right do I own of myself? Each day added to the life is Your gift, isn’t it?

Now, I surrender, with the ultimate faith that, you, the writer-director of my story, who led me in a time I didn’t know my worth, will lead me and provide me all years to come! All I can say at this moment is: I love You, Lord!! Take hold of me, and attune me, even if I become unfaithful, and please, never give up on me!!

Only You :-)

Silence,

So thundering,

Only you can noise and deafen!

Vacuum,

So monstrous it stands,

Only you can fill!

Darkness,

So black and consuming,

Only you can brighten!

Nightmares,

Wakening with agony,

Only you can peace!

Anxiety,

Unsure of the future,

Only you can answer!

Sympathies,

Stirring the ever so fresh wound,

Only you can soothe!!

Life,

Just an everyday survival,

Only you can teach!!

Oh my dear,

Oh my dear!

Thank you For all the Love :-)

Love will Keep Us Alive :-)

There was a serious discussion on love yesterday at my workplace. My colleague was in utter confusion. She asked me .“How do I know if this is a true love?”

I was confused. Not that I didn’t know what to answer. In fact I answered instantly. I know, it was a very dumb answer just like me hehehe :-) but I seem to have had the answer for this question since ages. Maybe I knew it all the time. And now was only waiting for someone to ask me.LOL :P

“If it’s love it’s true,” I answered.

I was asked.“How do you know it is love then?” I really saw it coming. Nobody would just accept the answer I have given.

It got me thinking.I have never been so thoughtful about my studies as I was thinking so deeply in this matter..heheh :-)..Wish I had concentrated equally while studying...LOL.. I know what love is, I really do. I just don’t know how to express that with words. They don’t seem to be enough. These words seem to be shallow and too small to define it. After having written about love for almost 2 years since I started writing on my earlier blogs, I still cannot find the right words to show what love is. Maybe I am not supposed to? I mean, I am definitely not Shakespeare, and he was good, wasn’t he? Romeo and Juliet still makes me cry every time I read it or watch the play or the movie. But even having all the works of Shakespeare available, people still ask what love is. Though, maybe they haven’t read Shakespeare? Maybe next time someone asks me what love is I will send them to the library instead?

I can go on speaking about love…

It is being told by one of my blogger friends in a very beautiful way "Lena":

Love is finding peace, solace and comfort in yor beloved's arms.
Love is a great feeling of belonging to someone’s world.
It is an eternal spring in your soul.
It is a permanent smile in your heart.

I can tell you that love is Life.

Love is being happy. Not for yourself. But being happy for the other person.

Life with someone and for someone. When nothing else matters and yet everything does.

For someone that special that when they look at you they touch your soul.
When they smile at you they speak to your heart.
When they kiss you, the world stands still.

Love is when you prefer to be together through hard times rather than having it easy separately.

It is fighting for what you think is right for the both of you. It is holding on and hanging in each time things go wrong. It is supporting each other in the smallest of actions. It is standing by when the whole world turns its back to you. It is being there even if they didn’t ask you. It is knowing that they would do the same.

Love is power. Power of feelings, emotions, faith, beliefs, understanding.

It is giving someone the power to destroy you but trusting them not to. And they will not. And no matter what happens between you, no matter how badly you fight or what mistakes you make, you will love that one person without regret for the rest of your life.

Love is missing someone so badly that it aches. It aches every day, every hour, every minute, and only when you are with them does the pain go away.

Love is finding someone so completely perfect for you. Someone who makes you happier than you ever dreamed to be. Someone who touches your life so profoundly and gives you a whole new reason to breathe.

The reason to wake up in the mornings. The reason to live.

And this person will make you happy when you are sad, will understand your imperfections and see through them perfectly, will wait patiently just to hear your voice before they go to bed every night…This person will believe in you and your purpose, and they will be there with you no matter what, no matter when, no matter why… they will be there for you… always and forever.

Sounds too good to be true, doesn’t it?

Love doesn’t always come easy. It is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on and not letting go. Even if at times it is really hard. Love is work, love is responsibility. Love is care. The care you give and the care you get. It is sharing. Feelings. Emotions. Thoughts. The Past and the Future. The Present.

Love is also understanding. Understanding that fairy tales don’t just happen. You work for your own fairytale. And you work hard. Every day. Every single hour. Each moment of your life. You adjust, you care, you compromise, you create your own fairytale. You do it together.

Love does not just happen. You find love, and you work hard to make it a beautiful bond of two loving hearts. And if you both work for it, you might be able to create your own fairytale. For a lifetime.

“And in the end, I'm Happy to fall in love with that one special person..over and over again :-)

Only Once In Life :-)

Only once in your life,
I truly believe,
you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.

You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.

You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

-Bob Marley

Rants of an Optimistic Pessimist......

what's life? -without these little tensions and fears?
what's life? -without the feeling when you overcome all blocks?

there were days when i really felt lost and defeated, there were days when i felt no energy to fight back, and there were moments that made me cry, but again, there were these special people in life who never wanted me to quit, accept defeat and cry.. there were hands held out for me to walk, and shoulders to support me, and there were friends who left me amidst all the probs.. there were people who i wished if stayed for long ! and look, there are some left, there are some moving away, and there are some who don't care !

At this moment of time, i know, there were things known and unknown to be, but, there is something that you know, that who you are ! so finally its time I move of, from the residues and left outs of the broken relationships, and making sure, those stay; are worth staying and those leave; worth leaving ! its never easy leaving people behind you in life especially when you are so close to them, and again, its not easy to move on after leaving some people. it definitely creates some void in you, it does generate the incomplete feeling in you, but in the end, realize, its your life, and you decide the way you leave it, either mourn for those who never knew you, or live for those who even understood your silence. !

Relationships in life is such a complicated thing to understand, at times you feel so good to have all relationships around you, and at odd times, you thirst to be left alone. Life is never complete and worth when you neglect relationships, but make sure that the relationships you keep are indeed relationships !

oh yes, its time i quit writing nonsense.. its worthless to read.. i just graved my thoughts, anger and feeling of insecuruty here :) after all its my place to grave things that i am bothered about

Moments of You and I :-)

Moments of love,
Moments of pain,
Moments of loss,
Moments of gain,
Moments of happiness,
Moments of sorrow,
Moments that came,
And moments that are now,
Moments that you and I,
Have spent,
And will spend hereafter,
Engraved in my heart,
Forever they' ll be,
Will make me feel special for you,
That you're the most precious person,
Till eternity!!!!