Mind, Eyes and Tears !!!

Eye is like the earth...
When tears are like the ocean.
There is no moon here...
But just the emotion to cause tides.
There is land...
Of vivid coloured imaginations.
I boarded a ship...
To travel into my mind;
But I didnt see any colours,
Only an eternal darkness.
Was it 'coz of the night time?
Or was my mind blank??

So Far Away From Me !!

I have an unbelievable version of “So Far Away From Me” by Dire Straits sung live at Sydney. Its acoustic and you can hear the whole crowd sing (and hum along) with Mark Knopfler, throughout the song.

Its truly a goose pimply experience….I promise you, if you already like the song, you will drool on it, on the other hand, if you dont, you will fall in love with the genius called Knopfler.

If you cannot lay your hands on this, let me know, if I am around, will share this with you :-)

(My recent resolution – if Knopfler ever comes back to India, even its Bihar, I am running down to their concert).

Sit by Vikram Seth

Sit, drink your coffee here; your work can wait awhile.
You are twenty-six, and still have some of life ahead.
No need for wit; just talk vacuity, and I’ll
Reciprocate in kind, or laugh at you instead.

The world is too opaque; distressing and profound,
The twenty minutes’ rendezvous will make my day.
To sit here in the sun, with grackles all around.
Staring with beady eyes, and you two feet away.

(This could easily have been my poem on a Sunday morning, or a Friday evening, or a everyday lazy morning. I feel strongly that the cup of “poison” (be it wine, coffee, chai) is more than just that, its a process by which two people can connect over meaningless nothings. The more faster our lives become, the more we keep losing this ritual. Can we please save it for me? (Seriously) It means a lot to me. I believe, this is all that I shall carry to my grave. The rest will (g)race and pass past me in those final moments :-))

A DIFFERENT WALTZ !!!!!

I waltz,
With my shadow,
When they are long,
To hold my hand;
Twilight,
Into the night.

I dance to the whispers
Of wind passing by.
I hum notes of joy,
For having you close by.

Twilight ends,
And comes a time,
When I part with you again,
Silently, into the night.

A thought on thoughts !!!!

My thoughts,
they dive
into the blue ocean..
Drinks away its blue!

It flies to the sky,
and whispers to the sky,
the secret,
to be blue..

The sun then comes,
in his reddish attire.
Stealing his clothes,
my thoughts run away..
And the sun hides,
behind the veil of the night.

Then my thoughts try,
to fly, far far away.
But a chain clings,
that says, the thoughts are still mine!!

Freedom !!!!

Freedom, is when I fly,
Into the starless skies
And sprinkle the white paint,
Drawing my own stars!

Freedom, when I sit,
By the river side,
Stirring its silence,
Making the moon in her
Dance to my ripples.

Freedom is when I am mesmerized,
In the smile of a kid,
The innocent, greed-less smile,
Clad in his torn clothes.

Freedom is when I am lost,
Looking in your eyes.
In the world of love,
For us, to be together,
For ever and always!!

Divine Feelings !!!!

Of a relation,
I'll sing;
Of a curtain,
I'll sing.

A curtain,
That caught fire.
One part burning,
And one part waiting.

Part,
Yet to burn;
Fell in love,
With the one on fire.

Eternity of longing,
Minutes of whispers,
Seconds of silence,
It all ends-

In just one divine kiss!

26/11 Today !!!!

Imagine

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

-John Lennon

CARBUNCLES OF LIFE !!!!

Emotions carbuncle d
Sweeping me into its abscess
A depth so rare, to where
A visit, these days, i dare

No longer do i feel alone
With thoughts in company
A lap, i lay things down to rest
Bare it all out, swing back up
Feeling strong and relieved

A release of sorts, anchor
the well-being of my soul
Makes me laugh at instances i cried foul
Let free of the bondage unnecessary
Which so often I tend to carry

Healing on its way, i do not sway
steady, plunge and lead each day
come what may, i see the ray
hid behind the carbuncles at life’s bay

PANTOUM OF LOVE :-)

here i lie with you alone
in the dark starry night
thinking about our deep love
that with all odds can fight


in the dark starry night
the moon smiles down upon us
thinking about our deep love
it casts an envy shadow on us


the moon smiles down upon us
with its tranquility and calmness
it casts an envy shadow upon us
because the love it experienced is less


with its tranquility and calmness
the night bows its head before us
because the love it experienced is less
as our love is more and there's in it no fuss


i love you with the depth of my heart my angel
and the love the rest experienced is less
like the moon or the stars or the night
with their tranquility and calmness


PS : my 1st Pantoum....wow !!!.i.didnt realise i could try this form of poetry....!!!

WINGS OF TIME

time

its wings

like that of

cute lovely little birds,

or of sweet charming butterflies,

flies far away so very quickly

leaving behind nothing but just unnoticed ash

of decayed pain and sorrow and forgotten bliss

wings of time...

PS : i really like the pic... :) ...

FALLING IN LOVE ......

i fell in love

i never knew

i realized late

that i loved you

the feeling i had

was strong and warm

i was confused

but u, me did charm

i cried for you

when you weren't there

i prayed for you

again and again

i felt your bliss

when you were happy

and this made me

more and more happy

i missed you a lot

when you were not here

i craved for you

because you are my dear

yet i was a fool

i did not realize

that i actually loved you

which i saw in your eyes

the same was the case

my beloved with you

such cases experience

people very few

I never realized

that you loved me

but that love in my eyes

you did see

now that we both

love each other

i wish that we never

part from one another

we will love each other
no matter we are how far

the god will bind us forever

coz for each other made we are

IT IS YOU I HAVE LOVED ALL ALONG....

There is something that I see
In the way you look at me
There's a smile, there's a truth in your eyes


But an unexpected way
On this unexpected day
Could it mean this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along


It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along


There were times I ran to hide
Afraid to show the other side
Alone in the night without you


But now I know just who you are
And I know you hold my heart
Finally this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along


It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along


Over and over
I'm filled with emotion
Your love, it rushes through my veins


And I am filled
With the sweetest devotion
As I, I look into your perfect face


It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved
It is you I have loved
It is you I have loved all along

MY LOVE !!!! :-)

I love myself more than ever,
when I smile for you,
when I cry for you,
when I live for you, and
when I say I love you.

I love you more than myself,
when I feel your love,
when I enjoy your presence,
when I respect your thoughts, and
when I imagine our future.

Random Quote :-)

PS : I'm a big fan of Brad Pitt...and this movie "Meet Joe Black" is one my favorites. A quote from the movie had really got me spellbound :-)

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

Thank You !!!

Though I have not been a regular visitor to deities and temples, But I wanna Thank you, Lord for a thousand over times. Every time, the weight to the head gets added, it’s only Your love that has humbled me back to reality. Because Your love is perfectly manifested in every inch of me…

*From the day I was a single cell, it is You who know me perfectly well!

*In the darkness inside my mother’s womb, You saw my parts taking shape, and we have shared secrets, which I have forgotten over the years. Despite, You remember every single secret of me!!

*You marveled at my every move inside the darkness.

*You made a miracle of my life, when you brought me out to see the world, when my vocal chords were moved for the first cry!

*When I was too small to know the value of life, You sent angels in people to nourish it…

*There were many a times, when I have stumbled, knocked down, so hard that getting up seemed difficult. But, You did not give up on me.

*I have gone astray, wayward, but every time, You gave me another chance! You replenished my soul, and revealed Your unconditional self!

*In those days, when I was young enough to appreciate the value of my life, You worked through Your plans, and they were just perfect!

*You did not mimic me as another human. You made me unique.

*Everytime I ran to You nagging, ranting and complaining, You only smiled, which meant to say, nothing can be any better than this perfection!

*Everytime I came fretting, You calmed the storm within!!

You are wonderful, just the way You are!! What else do I need, dear Lord, than this perfect blend of joy and pain. I am glad I knew both, have been through both, and even glad that You are beside me in each. What better perfection can I ask for? Just grant me two things: To be honest in all I do, to never be rich or poor, in any terms, just give me what You feel I need, because sometimes I fail to know the difference between needs and wants!! What better right do I own of myself? Each day added to the life is Your gift, isn’t it?

Now, I surrender, with the ultimate faith that, you, the writer-director of my story, who led me in a time I didn’t know my worth, will lead me and provide me all years to come! All I can say at this moment is: I love You, Lord!! Take hold of me, and attune me, even if I become unfaithful, and please, never give up on me!!

Only You :-)

Silence,

So thundering,

Only you can noise and deafen!

Vacuum,

So monstrous it stands,

Only you can fill!

Darkness,

So black and consuming,

Only you can brighten!

Nightmares,

Wakening with agony,

Only you can peace!

Anxiety,

Unsure of the future,

Only you can answer!

Sympathies,

Stirring the ever so fresh wound,

Only you can soothe!!

Life,

Just an everyday survival,

Only you can teach!!

Oh my dear,

Oh my dear!

Thank you For all the Love :-)

Jobless Rant :P :P

PS: I'm feeling so sick,that I'm not able to concentrate on my work... :( :( I took solace into reading some literary articles...heheheh :-)...I feel so jobless right now.Its 12:24Pm and I'm dead hungry...:( :( Since morning , the following quote by Sir Hugh Walpoe had been tricking in my mind.. :)

The most wonderful of all things in life, I believe, is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a glowing depth, beauty, and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing, it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of Divine accident.

Wonderful quote!!!! :-)

Laugh :-)

Loud burst of sound,pleasant,
Amusement with high spirits of contentment,
Unconditional joys all around,
Giggling and chuckling in abound,
Hilarious tone,so vibrant..:)

Love will Keep Us Alive :-)

There was a serious discussion on love yesterday at my workplace. My colleague was in utter confusion. She asked me .“How do I know if this is a true love?”

I was confused. Not that I didn’t know what to answer. In fact I answered instantly. I know, it was a very dumb answer just like me hehehe :-) but I seem to have had the answer for this question since ages. Maybe I knew it all the time. And now was only waiting for someone to ask me.LOL :P

“If it’s love it’s true,” I answered.

I was asked.“How do you know it is love then?” I really saw it coming. Nobody would just accept the answer I have given.

It got me thinking.I have never been so thoughtful about my studies as I was thinking so deeply in this matter..heheh :-)..Wish I had concentrated equally while studying...LOL.. I know what love is, I really do. I just don’t know how to express that with words. They don’t seem to be enough. These words seem to be shallow and too small to define it. After having written about love for almost 2 years since I started writing on my earlier blogs, I still cannot find the right words to show what love is. Maybe I am not supposed to? I mean, I am definitely not Shakespeare, and he was good, wasn’t he? Romeo and Juliet still makes me cry every time I read it or watch the play or the movie. But even having all the works of Shakespeare available, people still ask what love is. Though, maybe they haven’t read Shakespeare? Maybe next time someone asks me what love is I will send them to the library instead?

I can go on speaking about love…

It is being told by one of my blogger friends in a very beautiful way "Lena":

Love is finding peace, solace and comfort in yor beloved's arms.
Love is a great feeling of belonging to someone’s world.
It is an eternal spring in your soul.
It is a permanent smile in your heart.

I can tell you that love is Life.

Love is being happy. Not for yourself. But being happy for the other person.

Life with someone and for someone. When nothing else matters and yet everything does.

For someone that special that when they look at you they touch your soul.
When they smile at you they speak to your heart.
When they kiss you, the world stands still.

Love is when you prefer to be together through hard times rather than having it easy separately.

It is fighting for what you think is right for the both of you. It is holding on and hanging in each time things go wrong. It is supporting each other in the smallest of actions. It is standing by when the whole world turns its back to you. It is being there even if they didn’t ask you. It is knowing that they would do the same.

Love is power. Power of feelings, emotions, faith, beliefs, understanding.

It is giving someone the power to destroy you but trusting them not to. And they will not. And no matter what happens between you, no matter how badly you fight or what mistakes you make, you will love that one person without regret for the rest of your life.

Love is missing someone so badly that it aches. It aches every day, every hour, every minute, and only when you are with them does the pain go away.

Love is finding someone so completely perfect for you. Someone who makes you happier than you ever dreamed to be. Someone who touches your life so profoundly and gives you a whole new reason to breathe.

The reason to wake up in the mornings. The reason to live.

And this person will make you happy when you are sad, will understand your imperfections and see through them perfectly, will wait patiently just to hear your voice before they go to bed every night…This person will believe in you and your purpose, and they will be there with you no matter what, no matter when, no matter why… they will be there for you… always and forever.

Sounds too good to be true, doesn’t it?

Love doesn’t always come easy. It is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on and not letting go. Even if at times it is really hard. Love is work, love is responsibility. Love is care. The care you give and the care you get. It is sharing. Feelings. Emotions. Thoughts. The Past and the Future. The Present.

Love is also understanding. Understanding that fairy tales don’t just happen. You work for your own fairytale. And you work hard. Every day. Every single hour. Each moment of your life. You adjust, you care, you compromise, you create your own fairytale. You do it together.

Love does not just happen. You find love, and you work hard to make it a beautiful bond of two loving hearts. And if you both work for it, you might be able to create your own fairytale. For a lifetime.

“And in the end, I'm Happy to fall in love with that one special person..over and over again :-)

Only Once In Life :-)

Only once in your life,
I truly believe,
you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.

You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.

You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

-Bob Marley

Rants of an Optimistic Pessimist......

what's life? -without these little tensions and fears?
what's life? -without the feeling when you overcome all blocks?

there were days when i really felt lost and defeated, there were days when i felt no energy to fight back, and there were moments that made me cry, but again, there were these special people in life who never wanted me to quit, accept defeat and cry.. there were hands held out for me to walk, and shoulders to support me, and there were friends who left me amidst all the probs.. there were people who i wished if stayed for long ! and look, there are some left, there are some moving away, and there are some who don't care !

At this moment of time, i know, there were things known and unknown to be, but, there is something that you know, that who you are ! so finally its time I move of, from the residues and left outs of the broken relationships, and making sure, those stay; are worth staying and those leave; worth leaving ! its never easy leaving people behind you in life especially when you are so close to them, and again, its not easy to move on after leaving some people. it definitely creates some void in you, it does generate the incomplete feeling in you, but in the end, realize, its your life, and you decide the way you leave it, either mourn for those who never knew you, or live for those who even understood your silence. !

Relationships in life is such a complicated thing to understand, at times you feel so good to have all relationships around you, and at odd times, you thirst to be left alone. Life is never complete and worth when you neglect relationships, but make sure that the relationships you keep are indeed relationships !

oh yes, its time i quit writing nonsense.. its worthless to read.. i just graved my thoughts, anger and feeling of insecuruty here :) after all its my place to grave things that i am bothered about